Written Friday, December 6
“I need space but I need love. I’m so f*cked up. I’m so f*cked up,” sings Caitlin Goulet on her new single Dive Deep. The song is a poignant exploration of the duplicitous nature of searching for human connection through romantic endeavours while simultaneously not knowing with certainty what your foundational needs are as an individual. It’s something any adult person can relate to, anyone who has been in failed relationships where you’re struggling just as much to figure yourself out as to figure out the other person or how you might fit into being with someone else. Add into the fact that being an artist or a creative person has a way of complicating everything. Chasing your ambitions is time consuming. Especially if you’re a struggling musician. You’re pretty much working towards this seemingly impossible goal all the time. And other people are bound to become casualties of that tenacity. Trying to make a relationship happen in that setting, it’s easy to feel like this other person is taking up a lot of your time.
Maybe I’m venting a bit on this review, but this song just really hit home for me at this point in my life. I think it’s probably relatable to a lot of people. To want love but also need to be able to do your own thing, that’s always going to be a struggle. Maybe love requires some degree of selflessness. Sometimes, though, there’s just no room for that.
Anyway, give it a listen. It’s a great track by a talented and beautiful up and coming Vancouver artist.